The hospital
A few months ago, I was hospitalized because I tried to kill myself. I really thought that I wasn't worthy of we call "living" anymore. I thought I deserved everything that has happened to me in the past few months.
What happened?
1- Since I am little girl, around 9 or 10, someone of my family is raping me once or twice a week. I've been dealing with that since a long time now, but it has gotten worse and worse since I started dating that boy.
2-I started dating a boy I really liked. Turned out he didn't really like me and he ended up raping me too.
3-Since then, I started hooking up with a lot of people, destroying myself so they don't have the possibility to do it themselves.
But one day, I decided it was time for me to go. I didn't want to live like that. I didn't want to live at all. So I started to cut myself really badly. When my parents found me laying on my bed bleeding but still alive, they called the ambulance and then I was at the hospital.
I stayed there a couple days with nothing in my mind. I was just sad that I didn't succeed to escape life.
When I got out, it started all over again. I knew then that it had to stop. For the first time in my life, I told someone that my dad is raping me is I was 9. I told my best friend Simone. She decided it was time to do something. So she told her parents and they proposed to take me since my parents couldn't take of me the right way.
I was relieved that they offered that. At that time, I was happy I failed to kil myself.
Life is giving me another chance |
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